new tricks.

My dad has never been a dog person and he is falling in love with mine. I am in my hometown, exploring the breathtaking marshes and soft, white sandy beaches. Meditating on bittersweet memories and mulling through ideas as I always do when I visit the home of my beloved and missed mother. I took […]

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a freedom of limitations.

There is freedom in discovering your limitations. About 9 months ago I wrote a post about my dreams of disability. Dreams of going about my life with less stress, less work, and an opening of the heart and mind. Little did I know this alluring gift was rocketing toward me like a silent freight train. […]

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departing Gifts.

MS has got me thinking about my career and future in the workplace. I currently have a high-stress, C-level position and like any decent California earthquake, it is beginning to forge little cracks. Cracks in my skin and in my emotional armor, but much less noticeably, cracks in my passion for working. My parents forgot […]

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Hold Your Fire.

My community is on fire and so is my heart. I may have a chronic illness and I may have chronic dating problems in Los Angeles, but I have formed a group of friends that are solid and loyal and full of love. We are all so very different, but we are there for one […]

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The Last Stronghold.

I am actively working on getting better at letting go. I have been for some time now. My best friend from high school and I sometimes talk about who we used to be and the things we used to do. An example that gets brought up often is the obsession I had with money. I […]

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Let’s Meet.

Everyone needs support. When I first got diagnosed I had an amazing friend with me the whole time, who let me lean on his shoulder and cry and then laugh and look at each other stunned… he shared lots of emotions with me that day. I could not be more grateful to have such wonderful […]

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Texas Time.

I left a chunk of my heart in Lubbock. I recently went to Texas. Lubbock, Texas specifically. If you’ve never been to Lubbock, let me tell you all about it. There is a college – Texas Tech. There is a Walmart. There is a fantastic pizza place. There are many trucks. There is a lot […]

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Attention: silence.

Meditation is hard. I am positive the biggest life lesson of my 30s was learning to meditate and learning to love it. Now I crave meditation like I crave pizza, but it was quite the journey getting there. For the first 4 years it was similar to the gym. You know you’ll feel amazing afterward, […]

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